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THE CROWN

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 During my TWW, I started watching "The Crown". It was such a great distraction from the anxiety I was feeling, and like many Americans I know, I'm fascinated by the British royal family.  Well I'm embarrassed yet proud to say that I have finished all 4 seasons (it's only 40 episodes haha) in a matter of a week. Like most UK shows that I've watched so far, the seasons are short and the pace is fairly quick though there are what I call "slow-burn" episodes here and there. It gave me new insight into the family members I never thought about (Princess Margaret and Princess Anne in particular), and made me see other members in a different way (especially THE love triangle; Diana, Charles, Camilla). I also realized what brilliant actresses Claire Foy and Vanessa Kirby are; I'm actually binge-watching their Youtube interviews now, hah! Last night was a different story; a huge wave of sadness washed over me as I came to the realization that I would get

I GAVE IN

 After another month of not conceiving, I decided to go against doctor's orders and got the  Premate Ovulation Predictor Kit  to use in conjunction with tracking my ovulation on the Flo app. I have to say, that the app is fairly accurate at predicting my most fertile days so far, which gives me a bit more faith in continuing to use it. Onto the kit. I am already a bit icked out when I have to pee in a cup for urine tests at the doctor's, so the thought of doing this everyday made me uncomfortable, but then I reminded myself that having a baby would be likely be THE most (physically) uncomfortable thing that could come from this journey (hopefully) so a little pee never hurt nobody, hah. Since there has been lots of opinions written about the most ideal time of day to use the test, I decided to test it out both first thing in the morning, and late afternoon. After just two uses, the process became routine and I felt myself looking forward to taking the test.  Now we sit and wait

UNITED STATES OF ANXIETY

 I meant to post on Election Night, but I was way too distracted and anxious. I'm still distracted and anxious, but I also feel restless, thus why I'm writing now. The pandemic has thrown an already contentious election into whatever is higher than high gear. My rosacea is flaring up (or at least it feels like it), my attention span is scattered, my heart is racing, and my mood is tanking. As of 10pm EST, Joe Biden is ahead. I am still way too scarred after the 2016 election results to breathe a sight of relief just yet. Tie that in with the dreaded TWW, and I am a ball of anxiety. I have been doing my normal routine of cleaning, cooking, checking emails, and chatting with friends (is it any coincidence that all these calming activities begin with the letter "c" including the word "calm"? Am I officially going crazy by noticing this?). I am torn between keeping up with the news by being glued to the TV, but also trying to keep my sanity by being productive.

QUARANTINE HALLOWEEN

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! Since I just came back last week from visiting family abroad, I decided to quarantine for 2 weeks. This happens to coincide with one of my favorite holidays, Halloween! However, with the pandemic still going on, it's not the same anyway so I am not upset at missing out on whatever festivities are going on. Additionally, I am such an introvert that I need the extra time to decompress and have some "me" time to refuel myself mentally. I also may have overindulged on lots of delicious meals and junk food so I don't want to be tempted with alcohol, candy, and other good-but-bad-for-you foods. Last but not least, if I can do my part to prevent potential spread by just simply staying home, then why not? Being that it's Halloween and my two week waiting period, I have enjoyed distracting and entertaining myself with all things spooky, festive, and fun. My husband and I watched Hocus Pocus for the first time a few days ago! I've always wondered why it

TWW

 I'm now in the dreaded "TWW" period which I learned during my trying-to-conceive journey, stands for "Two Week Wait". When I asked my gyno about the best ways to track my ovulation, best chances at conceiving, and early signs of pregnancy, she told me with the slightest hint of exasperation that the traditional methods work best. This means having sex as often as possible to not miss any "window", not rely too much on apps (although she mentioned it was fine as an aid to record data to reference), and a missed period is the only true indication of even a possibility of being pregnant. Basically she was saving me a good deal of money that I would otherwise be spending on ovulation strips and such. I don't think there's anything wrong with purchasing these aids though, but as someone who is furloughed from my job, I do appreciate hearing that those extras are not totally necessary. Furthermore, I think it's best to learn as much as possible

TTC

I always knew I wanted children "one day", but I just didn't know which day that was. Even when I was in serious relationships, even when I was thinking of marriage, I wasn't so sure about kids. That is, until I met my now husband over three years ago. More on that romance another time.  Fast forward to the present; we're both in our 30s, and just celebrated our 1-year anniversary over the summer and ready to create a family together. I admit, neither one of us did a whole lot of research but soon realized we should have before taking the plunge. We have only been TTC (Trying To Conceive) for 2 ovulation cycles (going on the third), which resulted in me crying when I got my period both times. Thank goodness for my husband, who keeps me positive and sane. He reminded me that we only just started, and that there are couples who try for years, so while I'm justified to be disappointed, I shouldn't be stressing myself out by being this upset at such an early s